Not Good

So the Dr. appointment on Monday did not go as well as I would have liked. It was painful and only told me that I needed to have surgery again to have polpys removed. I have so many mixed feelings about everything right now. Is this what I want? I know I want a child but why does if have to be sooo hard? With my sisters all the guy had to do was hang his pants on the bed post and "oh look hunny were preganant." I feel broken and I'm not sure I can be fixed. Last week I felt positive, this week not so much.